back and better than ever
im ready to beat this. goodbye annorexia hello HEALTHY FIT LIFE! im so close! i tired of having a set bak every time im making progess. just a few more lbs and im there. dont fear food. BACK TO BLOGGINGG BABIESS.
THIS MORNINGS OATS WERE TOTES TERRRIFFIICCC. omg so simple. eco-planets gluten free original oameal blend with stevia in the raw and 3grams of muscletechs choclate casein mixed with water Poured on top and MIxed to toasty warm perfection. AND i made a healthy DELICIOUS cheesecake for desert at my cousins house tonight!! cant wait. not like i burnt my chest by eating my oats and dropping them on myself this morning…awks. LOL ohh and i kindA wrote my college essay on oatmeal….yea call me weird OBSESSION.
K so i had a pretty bad dra appt today… My
Recoverys not doing to hott rn but im determined. I refuse to go to an outpatient center…. Anyways heres my first ever… Casein pudddinggg! Gluten free obvi!
Let me start with saying im back! Im back to bloggin or tumblrin watevs ucall it! :) sorry its been a while. Breakfast? K so egg whites
With sugar free smuckasss breakfast syrupp mmmmm good. K dont mock it till ya try it its amazee! And my first sucess with…. Over nght oats!!! … It gets better… IN A CONTAINER. What?! Blogger trendy right there. “oiaj” yea ok how bout ooiac? Overnight oats in a container anyone? Lol it was yerrmmyy! Aka yummy in weird ik. 1/2 serving of gf oats microwaved half way with 2/3 cup water the. Added 1 tsp chia and stirred in sf jam then left in the fride overnight to soak up the water. Taaadaaa.
Sometimes i just want to cry and breakdown. I see how far ive come with my recovery yet there are days like theese where i feel myself having a relapse and retreating to my old ways. Physically my recovery has been minimal about 4 lbs in a yr… But mentally ive been rly improving but i feel myself holding bak distracting myself from the kitchen admd filling up in veggies. Why? Bc i woke up this morning looked in the mirror and felt fat. Then i put on a pair of shorts
And yes they wer still alittle big but not as big as i rembered.. Then i wqs walking and looked down and all i saw was my legs.
It makes me depressed tht im not allowed o to to the gym i feel like a couch potato eating and sleeping 24 7 ughhhh so much stress and so muxh to do
Amazing! Barbequed cajun shrimp n vegggies. Peppass shrooms zucc wiff some sweet taterr yummy!
My first oats in a jar! Not as good as my regular oats :( but can check it off my oatmeal to do list!